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Date: October 24, 2013 (Wednesday)
I don’t know what do I did in my previous life to deserve a misfortune like this.
Honestly today I’m just annoy that I didn’t even get any single ticket in thousands of Super Junior Ticket promo as in even the consolation price I lost! And this is annoyance ignite my ego to question if I am as bad as the most sinner people who live in the earth, because I feel sorry to myself that is the most disastrous feeling a person could have,
I lost everything that is my interpretation to everything happen, it was like I’m in the middle of nowhere with nothing to hold just the hands of my love ones that even their I couldn’t recognize, I’m blazing myself for growing up with a bad attitude I feel sorry to the people around me who always been there I didn’t even pay respect and care at all.
Jealousy is the most bullshit thing to me because I do have that thing, I feel jealous in every people around me with their gadgets, money, fame, good looks, perfect body and many more. I think to save money just to buy an Iphone 4s and fuck shit; I couldn’t even afford to buy facial wash I don’t know.
I join in many contests these past few days and first time I pray to win for a single ticket and I didn’t win I don’t blame God it just I blame myself, I really really want to watch Super Junior but yet I didn’t do anything but the most sad part is I couldn’t do anything how can a student who doesn’t have money to buy a single touch screen phone to watch a useless concert just to see his idol, but I am really really sad that I can’t take it no more but just to cry thinking what if I born rich and lots of money I don’t even need to join that bullshit contest I can even made my own contest but all of this is just an imagination because in reality I can’t even study in a private school and another bullshit thing is I couldn’t accept this fact that we are not rich huhuhu
Personal part also shooting me, I just think and imagine what if I still have mother and father that I don’t even know who they really are my father didn’t even show to my grandmother and my uncles just put a story that my father died when I was still in my mother’s womb but the fact is he is not my father it was my older brother’s father and my mother she left me when I was grade 2 then didn’t even show even in my birthdays and elementary graduation then suddenly like a mushroom she will appear into our life when I was still first year college then disappear again huhuhuhu how I wish I have parents who is kind, caring and most specially lovable as my grandparents that even though I am so naughty child still they love and never give up on me that’s why I can even put myself offer just to save them I MISS YOU LOLO
I don’t know but I want to say sorry that all my bad taught been release now I’ m sorry to God, my parents, my grandparents I’m So So Sorry!
NOTE: This failure made me realize that it is not too late to change and be more dedicated to study to become a rich and a multi millionaire that all the things I want and like can be hold by my precious hands.
KPOP LIFE: 2NE1 where are you now!
Papa YG you promise us that my girls will return in October with a full album I’m still waiting and I will be a blackjack no matter what happen I love Sandara Park “Ang Pangbansang Krung Krung ng Pilipinas”
REMARK: Super Junior you must be ready to meet me Hahaha!
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Date: October 21, 2013 (Monday)
Paulo De Jesus is my name and i am proud E.L.F. ELF is the fandom of Super Junior my first and most priority idol group, people around me most especially my kuya consider me as a weird Asian human being “How can a person love a song that he/she doesn’t even understand?” the question he always shooting to me and i have a shotgun answer to reply to him “Why do you love Buchikik by Yoyoy Villame ?" Every people around me keeps getting annoy whenever I ask them that question because they don’t have an answer because in reality Music is the Universal Language.
People around me starting to question my gender because of all the kpop groups that ever been established Super Junior is the one who caught my attention, Lee Donghae to be specifically and the funny part here is that even me, myself I do consider my self as a fangirl because like other fangirl i do what they do buy an album, post a poster around my room, buy merchandise where they faces is stamped and i scream whenever I see a poster, picture and video of them so even tough there are fanboy the alter ego of fangirl I still do consider my self as a fangirl because i believe that being a fan doesn’t have gender as long as you love your idol.
Before I met kpop I am living in a dark lonely boring ball because all I do is sleep -> eat -> go to school -> go home -> eat -> sleep. I don’t do anything I wasted all my money just to buy food then eat it, wasting my time just to sleep and most especially I don’t know what to do in my life, I don’t even know what course should i take, but all of this change when i met KPOP I become a money savior because all of us know that being a fan is luxurious job so I started to save money, I don’t let my free time just to be an ordinary free time, I practice a dance step and because of that my waistline turn to 30 from 35 and now i can proudly dance in front of people because i know that i can dance in rhythm and Kpop also help me to choose what course should i take and i take education because most of kpop idols don’t finish their study and all of them feel sorry because of that so now I understand how school is important so i want to become a professor who will teach students why studying is important in life.
Kpop made me a better person and i am for sure that if i still keep my self as a fan i know that i will learned more from my idols, from my co-fans and most specially from my self.
I’am happy that kpop exist in the world …